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Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Schmorgasboard alert

Lately, I feel all over the place. I am antsy to get things accomplished and to feel productive, yet most of the time I get so caught up in whatever it is that I am doing, I don't accomplish what I had actually wanted to do during the day. Does this make sense to anyone? It is a weird feeling because I am living in Strasbourg. Here, specifically. (My humble abode)
It is almost like I am supposed to just go with the flow (which I do), but I miss my routine. But this is the second time I am trying to write this post and not get distracted. Sometimes my thoughts are just so jumbled!

Anyways, I think a lot of this stems from the fact that I am not keeping up with my workouts. Sure, I do yoga and run every now and again, but this is nothing in comparison to the workouts I do at home.(Whole wheat nut bread with peanut butter and banana, tangerine, coffee)
This is no ones fault but my own. I am the only one who controls my level of fitness, obviously. I find myself coming up with a host of excuses, from sheer laziness to promising myself I will do something active later, but I never actually do it.
(Picnic lunch at the SU center).
(Farmer's market strawberries and cherries).
(Vegetable Plate: Red and green peppers, cucumber, snap peas, red onion, onion tart, and cheese).
All of the rich food I have been eating lately (well, since moving here really) has left me feeling sluggish. The mental justification behind this is somewhere along the lines of "well I am only here for 6 weeks so I may as well enjoy it!" which I do. I am trying to not have negative self talk but it is getting harder every day.(Ratatouille and a summer salad)
There are just 10 days left until I fly back to America. I know I will fall back into my old habits and that life will go on. I don't really know where I am trying to go with this. This has turned into more of a stream of consciousness/ pity-party than I had originally intended.
(Matching bags of cherries that my host mom and I both purchased yesterday!)
But that is life. Not every day is a good day. You have to take the good with the bad sometimes. Acknowledging these emotions is a good thing, I am sure of it. It is a starting point and a way to move forward.(Today's lunch: Leftover ratatouille, summer salad with hummus, and a slice of whole wheat nut bread).
My parents arrive in Strasbourg for the day on Friday. They have been traveling down the Rhine on a cruise. It will be wonderful to see them! They always put things into perspective for me.

Until then, I will continue to take things as they come and try not to stress about the little things.(Moi, in front of the European Parliament)
After all, this period in my life is full of once and a lifetime opportunities, and I refuse to let a little bit of self doubt ruin that!
Until next time,
~Jenn

2 comments:

  1. You only have 10 days. Try to enjoy things that make you happiest, remembering how you'll feel not only during the meal but after it. Make choices you'll be proud of (that doesn't mean healthiest, because enjoying something incredible that you won't have at home, is something to be excited about... and "proud of"). I love France!! :)

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  2. The place you're staying is beautiful! Enjoy the rest of your time there, girl. You're right -- it's a once in a lifetime opportunity, so make the best of it!

    Have fun with your parents! (:

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